My friend Linnae came to visit me at the beginning of July. We used to live together in Nashville at a time when the pace of life felt much, much slower. I cherish the Sundays she and I would spend in a coffee shop, talking together, writing separately. Those hours were logged to the soundtrack of whatever Nashville singer-songwriter or band Lightning 100 was featuring that year; the Sunday routine went unrivaled. It felt like a stroll in the park. These days, the pacing is a bit different with more life experience under my belt. It feels like there are two settings: climbing or running (mind you, we should probably acknowledge that my run setting is closer to a jog). The strolling season is stuck somewhere in yesteryear; at least for now. I think that's okay? Maybe we will circle back to that on a later date. Being an adult comes with more responsibility and expectations. That can be really tough some days. Also, I honestly have no idea if I'm living my best life, as the kids are saying these days. What I can commit to is believing that every year is better than the one before. That definitely doesn't mean my years are any easier. Because, it feels like i'm climbing more often than running. Climbing: attempting to figure out how to process fears and insecurities; how to advance in a career that utterly confuses me; how to be a more patient, compassionate and generous person; how to taper my ego responses; how to not disengage when things get challenging... many mountains to scale and all important to participating in a well-lived life. The Running feels a little less frequent. However, when those moments occur, give me that Superman speed! That's what takes me to the next climb. I find great value in both climbing and running. Though it seems like I attach the reward to the running, moments often feel enriched because of the climbing.
In regards to acting, i'm moving along at turtle speed. But sometimes, the victory is getting one stubborn foot in front of the other. To end on a positive note, the one thing I have in abundance is people who love and support me. I truly couldn't ask for anything better than that. As always, thank you for reading my tumbleweed of thoughts.
Currently listening to: Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - The Nashville Sound.
