30 Days of Gratitude - Something Handmade

Before I begin my prompt of the day, I wanted to give you a little background. My friend Jodie, who is the mom of Norah and Conor and wife to Brett, does this writing challenge often. It’s from an instagram account called exhale.creativity. I figured i’d give it a go. I typically don’t need prompts to write about gratitude but it’s good to try new things, right? So here we go:

It arrived in the mail last month. A marker drawn image of the intersection at E. 79th St and 5th Ave in New York City. Does this intersection hold significance for me? No. But the artist means a lot to me. It’s by a boy named Thorben who I used to spend time with regularly while his mom ran errands and got some time to herself. Thorben loves drawing intersections with traffic lights - the more complexities, the better! I’m not sure if you’ve ever tried to draw an intersection with stacked traffic lights facing different directions, but it’s not for the faint of heart. Thorben loves details like that. He’s a lego master, loves reading, candy and LSU. He’s got a lot of feelings in his little body too. I miss getting to spend time with his family. They painted a chalk board wall in their kitchen. His mom, Carolyn, is an artist so there’d usually be some fantastic chalk drawn masterpiece of fun taking up a good bit of the board.

I loved living in New York for more reasons than I could ever explain. New York feels like a combination of miracles and strife. There are artists (and those who work in the arts), business people, non-profit and healthcare workers, entrepreneurs, nannies, temps, students, kids, state and government employees, homeless people, and bugs and critters, that fill the streets. It’s the city with a heartbeat. I learned a lot and felt even more. But if I had to pick one thing that had the greatest impact on my time there, i’d be the kids. And if I look at my life as a whole, the moment in my life when I actually felt myself changing was when I got to hold my niece Lucy, moments after she was born. I have kept drawings from kids for years and if I had it my way, my apartment would look more like a kid’s bedroom than an adult’s. I appreciate how kids see and move through the world. They are often curious and imaginative. So a drawing from a kid is pretty much considered a treasure.

When I opened the mailed brown envelope from Carolyn and Thorben and saw the colorful notes written from them both, I felt loved. The 8 x 11 homemade image of the Upper East Side intersection, that I normally wouldn’t notice as anything special, is now framed above my bed. It has become special. There’s another crayon-drawn NYC cityscape framed on my other wall by Lucy. I don’t know if i’ll ever be the grown-up I’m expected to be - but I’m slowly (very slowly) realizing that they may be how God intended.


Summer in the Rearview

Well, a lot has happened. I’ve included a handful of photos below to give you an idea of how my summer has unfolded. It’s felt unique - perhaps specific to this time in my life as a fairly new resident of Georgia. When is appropriate to not be new to thing or place anymore? I’ve worked the past year on building relationships, catching up on sleep and re-learning how to eat three meals a day, among other things. I’ve now been in Atlanta a whole year. I consider myself very fortunate to have all that I do. But don’t you worry, I still get anxious about the unknown and getting older. I still compare my lack to other peoples’ successes. Why is that? How much consistent contentment is possible as a flawed human? I often wonder about that. You know what though, I think that’s okay. Let’s dig in to these photos, shall we? But brace yourself, it’s not gonna be in order. Why? Because going out of order feels more fun.

I’ve been dogsitting here and there which have both been surprisingly sweet circumstances. Mr Feeny is the dog that looks like the old man. His family is a couple I met through my friend Amanda. Amanda and I met in New York through my lifelong friend Gavin. That’s a long story but she and I have become good friends. She’s been a lifesaver - note to self, get a photo with Amanda. The other doggo is Rosie who’s a stunning creature and very codependent; all this is fine by me. She’s also related to Comet from Full House. Yes, that’s a dog name drop. I know I mentioned my improv class in the last post - there’s a photo of some of my class + our teachers in the mix. That experience was definitely what I needed. I was challenged to not overthink (yikes) or prepare (double yikes). It felt adjacent to clowning which I miss deeply.

There’s a photo of my childhood friend Morgan (who lives in GA too!) and I in her attic looking at old photos from high school. Our 20 year reunion is around the corner. How bizarre. We had a great day and ended it going through that tub of photos. I’m not gonna lie, I think she and I have aged pretty gracefully. Don’t tell me otherwise..

Lucy and Mae (my nieces) had a dance recital in Huntsville. They both did ballet and it was adorable. I’m over the moon that I could be there to see it. They’re awesome and kind. Note to self, get an updated picture with Walter, their brother. He was a trooper that day and stuck it out through a lot of ballet, without complaining, I might add. Okay only a couple more - i know you’re thinking, Sarah, this post is for you, not me. And you’re right. I could post about my old job and why I left (which involved a private investigator that I had to meet with) … but who really wants to hear that boring story. I digress.

I went to a Kentucky Derby fundraiser party with my friend Kari who I know through a mutual friend in NYC. We got dressed up and went to a fancy house in Johns Creek. It was awesome and the food / bourbon / cocktails / and race made for a memorable time. The one of Katy, in the red cap, and myself, is from a Braves game. Would you believe a tiny bat (as in, the animal) flew into Katy’s face during the game? Good news, she does not have rabies. Now that she’s okay, I feel better telling you it was HILARIOUS. Alright, the last photo was quite a weekend. I went to a party, stayed awake until 2:30 IN THE MORNING, and had an all around great weekend in Nashville with Nick, Marissa, Sean and a sprinkling of other delightful folk. I told no one else I was in Nashville and it was nice to stay focused on one group. I felt rested (oddly) and laughed A TON. Okay, so that’s looking back on some of my summer highlights. Speaking of Highlights - did anyone else love the hidden picture page? I think that’s what it was called - where you had to find something like a wrench or banana in scene from a rainforest. I hope you remember. Thank you for reading, even if you were bored. I’ll write something soon about my new job and the acting scene here in the ol’ ATL. Ta Ta for Now!

Carole King Gets It

In less than one month it’ll be a year since leaving New York. How odd. Life has been a recipe with ingredients that include, grief, laughter, hurt, rest and healing. Wordle has given me a reason to talk to a select view daily. I’ve recently begun an improv class and am walking with someone through something awful that I hope I never have to experience. That same experience has been teaching me about forgiveness and confronting my own judgements. I’ve been slowly practicing guitar chords (it’s really hard) but am working on those calluses.

I’ve been to Nashville, Memphis and Huntsville to see friends and family which has been amazing. My five year old niece sang the National Anthem, all by herself, at a minor league baseball game and she nailed it. I’ve gotten to film auditions that have made me laugh and have a group of girls that I go to the movie theater with on occasion - we call it a movie club. Atlanta is well into the warmer temps and nature is abuzz. This may be a silly thing to mention, but I’ll be moving into a two-bedroom come July. And while moving again is one of the major thorns in my side, I will have my own bathroom. I’m counting that as a HUGE win. My writing has been at a standstill as i’m sure you’re already bored with this update. However, i’m dipping my toes back into water and am hopeful something will ripen soon enough.

I feel grateful for my life. There’s been some picking up bits of confidence and dropping crumbs of fears and insecurities. I hope some little creature eats those right up so I never have to see them again. As Carole sings, You’ve got to take the bitter with the sweet. I’m more of a savory gal (Nachos & french fries please) but I don’t think Carole has written that follow up song yet. There’s a very hot Georgia summer right around the corner and I believe it’s gonna be a good one. I’m finally getting back on top of my letter writing too, so if you need a written hello, don’t hesitate to ask. Putting pen to paper is one of the great joys of my life. Also if you need a movie recommendation, might I suggest Paddington 2. My friends & passersby, Thank you for reading. Take care, sleep soundly and laugh hard.

Love, SS

PS. the photo below is from a wine night with friends not so long ago and what a night it was!